Monday, June 30, 2008

Case of the Mondays

It's been a typical Monday. I'm ready to go home but that's pretty much how I feel every day. I'm just not feeling work today. It could have something to do with the fact that my pay check was not correct again. I took a new position with a slight increase in pay two months ago, yet my pay checks are still not reflecting my pay increase. Needless to say, it is frustrating and makes me not want to do my job if I'm not going to be fairly compensated. But that should hopefully be all straightened out soon (even though I've thought that for the past two months now).

In other Bailey news, it was a nice weekend. Friday night, Fredo and I met up with two friends for dinner and then the final screening of the Gen Art film festival. Since I went straight from work, I had some time to kill before dinner so I did a little shopping. I got a onesie for Peanut that has a peanut on it (I could not resist) and some cute thank you cards in anticipation of my baby shower (not until August but my grandma had gotten us the stroller and car seat already). I still had some time to kill so I got a pedicure and then met everyone for dinner at Las Pinatas and then the movie. The movie was "Explicit Ills", an independant film. It was alright. I wasn't totally impressed with it but that could have something to do with the man sitting in front of me. He had long dreads that he kept flipping over the seat, which kept touching MY BARE LEG! Oh, this was when he wasn't making out with his girlfriend right in front of us. Between dodging the hair and trying not to look at the face sucking, I was a little uncomfortable by the end of the movie.

Saturday was low key--trip to the neighborhood farmer's market, got my hair cut and went to run some errands with Fredo. Then it was time to watch my White Sox beat the Cubs.

Sunday was the Gay Pride Parade. My friend had a party which was fun, but I got pretty tired and wanted to go home early. Seeing as how I'm always sober now, I have a hard time hanging out with people once they get tipsy. We headed home around 3. It started to pour as soon as we got back to our neighborhood. We tried to stop for food to no avail and then walked most of the way home in the rain. Just in time to order some food, watch TV and get ready for the White Sox to sweep the Cubs!

All in all, it was a pretty good weekend. Now I just have to make it through the short week so I can enjoy the 3 day holiday weekend. Can't wait!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

The World of Reality

I admit it, I generally have terrible taste in TV (and my husband will whole heartedly agree). I love shows on MTV like The Hills, The Real World/Road Rules Challenges and of course, the show that started it all, The Real World (I draw the line at A Shot At Love with Tila Tequila although I did watch the first season and totally knew what my friend was talking about one night when she said, "Hey girl, hey"). I always DVR the Real World so that I don't have to stay up until 10 to finish it and then I try to watch it when Fredo is otherwise engaged so he doesn't have to be subjected to it.

I do have to say that the seasons of The Real World are getting progressively lamer and being bat shit crazy now seems to be a condition of being on the show (Brooke from Denver, I am looking at you). Gone are the days where the producers let the roommates do their own thing (New York Season 1) or when they had to volunteer (Boston, even though Montana let a kid drink wine and then wasn't allowed to volunteer anymore) or when actual real life issues were a factor (San Fran and Pedro).

Even though the show is going progressively downhill, I still can't tear myself away from it. I have watched every single season and show no signs of stopping. I think I will probably watch it as long as it runs (although with every passing season, the chances of me watching it while shaking my head and saying, "These kids today..." increases... because you know, I'm 26 going on 60).

So I know what I'm doing when I get home this evening. Grabbing a snack and watching last night's episode of The Real World.

Jenn from the Denver cast put it best when she said, "This is the world of reality". And it's like a train wreck that I just can't tear myself away from.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

6 down, 3 to go

I am due 3 months from today. I am so excited and want the next 3 months to pass as quickly as possible. But I'm also apprehensive, scared, you know just freaking the fuck out in general.

I wonder what kind of mother I am going to be. I'm an only child and have limited experience with babies and zero experience with newborns. Am I going to know what to do? I've signed my husband and I up for about 5 different prenatal classes covering various topics in hopes that they'll prepare me. My mom lives nearby so she can help me but I don't have any mommy friends that I can call for advice. I'm the first of my friends to get married and definitely the first to have a baby.

I'm not worried about Fredo. Little kids love him and he has many nieces and nephews. He has been around babies a lot. He's going to be fine. It's definitely me I'm worried about.

I guess this is totally normal, although what do I know. Are there people out there who are not worried about having their first kid? I guess they would be in the minority.

All I am sure about right now is that I'm very excited for Peanut to arrive. We'll figure things out and do the best we can, like we always do. I just hope I'm good at it.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008


I am a compulsive list maker. I love to make lists. I don't always follow them but I love to make them. Like this:
Things to do today
  1. Work- but I get to leave early for #2
  2. Doctor's appt.- I get to take my gestational diabetes test today. I get to drink some sugary sweet drink and then sit there for an hour before they draw my blood. I'm sure it will be a blast.
  3. The changing table came today! I will not be to resist putting it together. Maybe Fredo will beat me to it.
  4. Gen Art screening #2 (and no, we did not make it Gen Art screening #1. We had burgers and then went home, laid on the couch and watched the Food Network. That is my idea of a perfect evening).

The baby has been kicking this morning. We know we are having a little girl but we've been calling her "Peanut" since the first ultrasound when she looked like a little peanut. I try not to use the name we picked out for her until she's actually here. So until then, she is Peanut. She'll probably be Peanut after she gets here too. Anyway, she has been kicking up a storm today but it just feels different than it normally does. I've actually jumped or squirmed in my chair a few times. It's such a weird feeling that is really hard to describe. It's just not what I've normally been feeling.

I'll be at the doctor today so I can tell them about the weird kicks. It's probably normal but what do I know?! This is all totally new to me.

Monday, June 23, 2008

First One

Today is my inaugural blog post. I have been kicking around the idea of starting a blog since I've gotten hooked on reading a bunch. I started reading blogs to help pass the time at work (I could have been working but c'mon really? Who does that?). So I'm giving it a try.

My goal in starting this blog is to have a forum for the frustrations and joys of my last few months of being pregnant, a place to write my thoughts when I'm waiting for this baby to come and most importantly an outlet after the baby comes but in all honesty, this will probably just end up being a place to bitch about the minutiae of my life.

Like today. My husband and I have been members of Gen Art ( in Chicago for the past two years. I was a fashion design major in college and when I graduated and got a "real job", I joined Gen Art as a way to keep a toe in the Chicago fashion and arts scene. Oh and they have free drinks at their events.

Tonight is the beginning of the Gen Art Film Festival. There is a movie and a party every night this week. Did I mention I am 6 months pregnant? I go to bed at 9:30 pm usually. The screenings don't start until 7:30 pm. I'm wondering how many of these movie screenings I will actually make it to. My membership expires in 2 weeks and will not be renewed since a year's membership is expensive and that money could be better spent on all things baby. So this is my last Gen Art hoorah. I want to make the most of the film festival and go to as many screenings/parties as I can. But realistically? I will probably make it to two. We're planning on going tonight because it's not too far from our house and the after party is right down the street. And then? Who knows. And I kinda want to say, "screw it", go for $1 burgers and then go right back home and lay on my couch.

So this is my biggest problem today. It's rough, I tells ya.